Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in the_egg's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
4:56 pm	my poor stepdad got a letter from the guy today, and half of it is just incoherent rambling.... the place they've got him in now (like a halfway house for nuts) isn't helping... I worry about him a lot, but I've no idea what to do for him.  After my mom kicking him out and everything, he's just in a shambles. *sigh* i think I'm getting old, I'm worrying about my parents. Current Mood: worried Current Music: The Mars Volta - [De-loused in the Comatorium #06] Eriatarka (Comment on this)
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
12:01 pm	waking up bored bored bored bored bored...... i think the only thing worse than being broke and bored is having money and being bored... I thought wealth was supposed to create entertainment dammit, and I'm still not entertained.  Not feeling very inspired at the moment, so no Photoshopping.... maybe I'll just read for a while. yours in douchebloggery, egg Current Mood: tired Current Music: The Mob - [Let The Tribe Increase #08] I Wish (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:34 am	been a while yeah, it totally has, forget I even had this damn thing for that matter.... Don't know what to say exactly, so I'll attack you with my art instead. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: Bjork - [Livebox - Post CD02 #09] Big Time Sensuality (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2004
8:31 pm	Cliche something I just finished... Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: oddjobs - time flies (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
1:54 pm	Atmospheric Conditions I think that a lot of the problems I have are somewhat rooted in the fact that most of the people I associate with on a daily basis are so negatively minded.. Although it's certainly understandable to be upset and angry about the plethora of problems we're facing at the dawn of the 21st century, I think that if not a positive outlook, at least a desperately optimistic outlook is neccesary to affect positive change. With G.W. in office chasing after turban clad boogey-men, with memetic engineering claiming bigger and bigger chunks of the collective conciousness, with people dying everyday for causes they don't care about and sometimes aren't even aware of, having any hope at all is not an easy thing. However, it seems to me that the only way to truly change anything is to be able to see the flaws in our current model of civilization with-out being broken down to the point where you only complain while still taking part in and perpetuating it.... Trying to find that balance more often then not has proven from me to be quite the high wire act, one which is much easier described than followed. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: sparklehorse - devil's new (Comment on this)
1:54 pm	Where to begin........ This is the hard part..... I haven't kept a journal since I was 15 or so, no idea where to start even. I guess my reasoning for undertaking this endeavour would be a good place. Well, i have really bad anxiety, the randomly hyper-ventilate and curl up in a ball kind.. My current theory is that part of it is due to the fact that instead of talking about the things that bother me, I internalize everything until I have an attack. My friends, while wonderful people that mean the world to me, are for the most part a bunch of very loud outgoing people, who aren't really big on the listening tip. So, in theory, if I can utilize this as a vehicle for honest communication regarding my life and surroundings, maybe i can stave off the anxiety demon for a bit... Current Mood: weird Current Music: Love As Laughter - Singing Sores Make Perfect Swords (Comment on this)